Common, Technical, and Existential

Alice: "I could never marry you"
Bob: "I will never marry anyone but you"
If you rely upon common knowledge you'll interpret this conversation to mean that Bob will die single, never having married, and that Alice would die never having married Bob but perhaps marrying someone else.  That interpretation relies upon common knowledge as you infer the meaning based on what you see, hear, and think or feel.  You see a conversation, you hear what is said, and you interpret meaning based on what you think it was intended to mean, or what you feel it was intended to mean.

Some of you will have sensed where this post was headed and chose to interpret the conversation literally.  Those of you who chose this option fall into the category of technical knowledge, that is to say you base your understanding of the world on what you can see and do not rely on your thoughts and feelings but rather on the logical deductions you can extract.  In the conversation about you would assert that 'could' is a future conditional and as such modifies the meaning of the sentence.  "Could be" implies a chance that something might happen, this is easy to follow for most people, however "Could never be" is interpreted incorrectly by most people to mean "Will never" when in reality even when 'could' is used in conjunction with 'never' there is still a chance that it may happen due to the conditional nature of 'could' therefore the logical conclusion someone of a technical mind will make from this conversation is that Alice may or may not die single, having married or not married Bob, whereas Bob who asserted "will never" commits to that fate and either marries Alice or never marries anyone.

Those of you with an existential mind will have ignored the common and the technical interpretations entirely and instead posed a series of questions in an attempt to determine a more resolute answer to the question being posed.  That is to say those of an existential mindset discard assumptions and thoughts and feelings entirely and instead look for evidence, and past experiences to draw upon to form a conclusion.  Those with this mindset would have asked first why Alice said what they did, and whether or not they meant it.  Whether the conditions that led them to say it could change in time and whether that could change the possible outcome.  In short those of an existential mind dismiss the statements entirely and state that no knowledge can be extracted from the conversation.

Which of these three mindsets you rely on most gives an insight into you as a person and your thought process.  Simple parallels can be drawn to say that those who were common minded would be the most social and least academic, those who were technical would be the most logical and calculating, whilst those who were existential would be the most artistic and creative from all three.

The problem is as can be demonstrated by the fact you know so little about Alice and Bob other than their names, is that we make assumptions.  Without knowing all the information there is to know there are no conclusions that can actually be conclusive, everything is speculation.  The truth is until both Alice and Bob die and the outcome is then immutable, there can be no conclusion drawn that is binding.  There are many pieces of information that can not be derived from what you have read alone, you can't assert gender for example, beyond gender normative assumptions based on the names.  You can't assert age either, and a more interesting one, you can't even assert species or classification for either Alice and Bob, you assume they are human because they can speak but even at that there are many animals that can mimic speech, and there are robots and computers that can be programmed to do so too.  When you begin to think about what you do not know you realise how much of our daily lives we base on assumptions, and how little we actually think about we see, hear, and do.

Forget it

About two weeks ago one of my hard drives crashed.  Without warning, it just quietly died.  My first reaction was disappointment followed by frustration as I started the long list of possible reasons it died.  It's an external hard drive so there are a few things I had to rule out.  After going through the list there's only one possible reason left and to verify it I had to order some spare parts online.  They haven't arrived yet but if they don't work then the drive is lost to me and all the data on it.

There was about 500 GB of data on the drive, and initially the big things that have been lost sprang to mind, ISOs for various pieces of software I use - some of those are backed up thankfully, some are not.  My entire music collection which was about 15 GB that was perhaps the first thing I thought of, some of it I can get back from iTunes, and the physical stuff too but a lot of it I can't get back - not through any legal means.  For the music at least I've resorted to Spotify for the time being.  The things that have hit home the hardest though are the things you can't replace.  Photos and Videos mainly of people, places, and things from years gone by.

I know what you're thinking - it's my fault for not backing it up.  Well the thing is, the hard drive was the backup.  A few months ago I backed everything up to it before upgrading to Windows 10, I deleted partitions on my hard drive and moved things around then installed Windows 10, since then I hadn't got round to copying everything back onto the PC, partly because I was unsure of Windows 10 at first and partly because it was more convenient to keep it on the external drive.

What has been lost though is quite a lot of irreplaceable data.  Beyond the photos and videos I mentioned, everything from my University years, and my College years was on it, both work and play.  There were also a lot of things I wrote, as some of you will be aware I am a writer, I do write much more than this blog.  The published works at least I could get back from Amazon Kindle's Publishing centre so I have copies of those, but it was the unfinished, and unpublished work that I lost, including a novel I've been writing for the last 2 years.  I have older copies of it backed up in other places but I've lost the last 6 chapters or so because I neglected to update the backups.

This whole experience has made me re-evaluate what data I hold onto myself.  I used to be quite against cloud storage but reluctantly I have moved to it now for some data that's not confidential as such.  One of the more unusual things I lost in this experience is people.  I don't keep every phone number I ever had in my phone, the people I didn't speak to anymore I deleted from the phone long ago.  Their numbers however were in a spreadsheet and there's no prizes for guessing where that was saved.  To be clear none of the numbers I lost were people I contact regularly anymore.  It's interesting for me to sit and ponder though that without those numbers I have now been completely cut off from them.  For a handful that's for the best.  For the rest I don't know what to think.  For a few I am down about losing, but at the same time the fact that we haven't spoken in a while is telling me to let it go. 

To give a rough idea of figures, I have made some estimations:

Music: 5,000 mp3 files roughly, this isn't my entire music collection as I had deleted a tonne a while ago.

Writing: This one is harder to estimate, my shortest novel is 10,500 words roughly and there's a few others, coupled with archived blog posts [from other blogs no longer active] plus my coursework from University, College, and my dissertation.  In all I would estimate around 1 million words of writing would be conservative.

Photos: This is about 1,000 which thanks to my social media abstinence [with the exception of Twitter] can't be found anywhere else.

Videos: These were never uploaded there weren't many, about 10 if even that.

Software: The biggest chunk of this is about 50 GB of Microsoft applications I got for free from Microsoft through MSDNAA which you can't access anymore once your account closes after graduation so I can't recover any of this.

Phone numbers: There's about 100 of those, but in all honesty I am not that fussed about the majority, we haven't spoken in years anyway and it's unlikely I would have contacted them.  There's about 10 guys though I feel sad about losing.  One or two I had crushes on, one or two I was a lot closer than that with at one point but we drifted apart for various reasons.  One of them made it quite clear he didn't want to speak to me again anyway.

This is where the question of forgetting things comes into play.  There's a lot I have lost because of this but a lot of it is just data that I was holding onto - hoarding if you will.  For the music at least, Spotify is doing its best right now, I've even discovered some new music with it which has managed to lift my spirits to the point where I am considering paying for premium - I'm not entirely sure it's worth it for me though as the adverts aren't that invasive after a while you forget about them.  The things I wrote I can write again, they may not be as good, they may be better, they will be what they will be. The memories of the people and places I went to will remain even if I don't have the photos and videos anymore.  In a way this is making me question the permanence of digital data versus the fading of memory - we forget the things that aren't that important, maybe some data should be the same, maybe you should just forget it.

Online Trust

When you meet someone online and you get to know them, it's very hard to determine their depth of feeling.  By this is mean the extent to which they actually care about you.  Now it's easy to be consumed by cynicism and say that nobody online really cares about you and write everyone off, but speaking from experience that is not strictly true.  Even beyond the people who have cared about me there are people I care about who I've never actually met.  That's a strange concept to me because I'm from that awkward in between generation that experienced life with and life without the Internet whereas those before and after lived without it and with it respectively. 

For those who lived without the Internet, the same apprehension exists when thinking about friendships and relationships in general that we form online.  Trust is something that is not easily placed.  On the other side those that have only lived with the Internet there as a higher level of comfort and greater degree of normality in building a friendship with someone you have never and may never actually meet.

We live in a modern world and our complex communication networks make it a very small place.  Being thousands of miles away isn't the barrier it once was.  No the main barrier in online communication isn't distance anymore it's the lack of physical presence.  The lack of unconscious communication.  Body language etc.  I have said before in other posts with myself as an example and my relationship with you my readers, that you only know what I choose to tell you, and the only things which are communicated are what I choose to communicate and what you can infer from that.  We don't consciously hide things but we make no conscious effort to hide them either when it comes to our faults, our insecurities, or simply the things about ourselves that we just don't like.  Case in point your profile picture will reflect what you are comfortable sharing and mask anything you are not.  That comprehensive review we carry out in such a short period of time after we take a selfie to decide whether or not to delete it is a highly compressed example of this thought process and behavioural pattern.

As a result of this the impressions we perceive, the opinions we build, and the conclusions we draw often end up being misinformed, or outright uninformed.  The things which in person may be blatantly obvious we can end up being completely oblivious to online.  The point of all this is to bring back the focus onto the question, how do you tell how genuine someone is being and determine the depths of their feelings?